Can't decide if tonight was a good night or a bad night.

Fucking wanker boy and his new whore turned up at the mission half way through the night and proceeded to dance right beside us so i couldn't bloody escape them. It was either whore features and her hackett stick of a friend or else it was him and her being all lovely dovey to a fucking rock song which isnt even grindable to?!? I also got the lovely comment of being "Little Miss Nobody" as stick and whore wandered past me because i was waiting at the door for my friends. I feel sorry to point out a few home truths but i am far from being Little Miss nobody these days. I have so many friends who respect me and actually want to spend time with me. I don't need to put on a show or worry about things when im around them cause they just accept me for who i am.

Have to give huge shouts to Alex, Martin, Nicky and Liz for tonight and for helping me to keep calm and not punch the mother fuckers in the face.

Im still so angry though that they made me feel uncomfortable in one of the places i feel most comfortable and don't have to hide who i am. Right now i wish more than anything that i could text the one person who would reassure me completely and hug me till i felt better. Problem is that she is on the other side of the world and i cant contact her at all. It hurts so much to not be able to call her or just see her smiling cause her smile could literally warm a cold dark room and ANYBODY who knows her would agree to that fact. 13 months is so long to wait for her :( Feels like i lost a limb as well as a best friend.